I'm feeling a little hard in my spirit these days.
If that makes any sense at all?
I feel disconnected from church...which is my doing.
Worship I love, I always have...there are moments when I'm completely overcome with emotion. But then the lights comes on and I start thinking about anything but the message.
Then the next week I for some reason find myself making excuses on Sunday morning as to why I don't want to go?
And sadly the excuses have been winning.
My husband doesn't say anything...but I know he can tell that my efforts have been distant.
I blame it on being sick, which I am, but that shouldn't be cause for denying God his time of worship.
I guess, I'm sharing this with you because I feel convicted and need accountability.
I don't usually express private parts of myself on this blog, I try to focus it on my love for my family and keep all the other stuff out...but today my thoughts are overruling me.
Last year was such a strong spiritual time in my life.
After our mission trip I felt closer to God then I ever had in my entire life.
I felt changed.
I began to look at life the way God had intended.
I felt Him in every decision I made.
I felt like if you looked at me, you could see His light.
Now...I feel empty.
Have you been through this before? What did you do?