Friday, July 31, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
I wake up to the sun shining on my face thru a crack in my curtains.
I look around.
To see my lil' one fast asleep by my feet.
And my husband to my left, snoring soundly.
I am thankful.
All the hard work and love in between these walls, almost too much to grasp at times.
"He gave me all this?"
Willingly and with love.
But then I have these moments of sadness.
I wouldn't be human if I didn't.
Sadness for friendships I've lost over the years or
regret about distant relationships.
Or that I have the hardest time building new relationships.
For fear that they won't like "me" once they get to know "me."
But those thoughts aren't real.
And have learned it's just sin working it's way in to distract me.
Because we are loved.
He is good.
And I remember, I am so thankful for "all this."
Monday, July 27, 2009
I had a "man tech"...he was impatient:
move to the left, move to the right, face me, tuck this into your underwear?...
But in the end he got this lil' gem for me.
So it was worth it.
Friday, July 24, 2009
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Although I could fry an omelete on my sidewalk...
and you force me to get into a bikini...
We appreciate your rays.
How else could we:
Thursday, July 16, 2009
While sitting on my couch...
Listening to my husband play poker and talk golf, I started to think of my own "score card."
My stats for the last 6 months.
Here's a run down:
(more really for my memory..since it's virtually transparent these days)
And that’s where we stand.
Me & Baby.
That and I cry all the time.
About nothing & about everything.
So I might need to borrow a tissue?
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
My dearest baby,
You are bringing something so special to our family.
Something we have never experienced before.
Something I have never experienced before...
We get to have you at home.
I know some are thinking we are crazy or I am crazy for that matter.
But knowing that we get to bring you into the world in our home where you were created, seems so beautiful to me.
I was made to do this.
A completely natural, beautiful delivery.
Something you deserve.
And something we will cherish for a lifetime.
I get teary thinking about daddy being able to be the one to catch you.
Or that our midwife will be one of my dearest friends.
And how we will be surrounded with family and so much love.
A welcoming you definitely deserve.
We love you.
Monday, July 13, 2009
Sunday, July 12, 2009
We started out with a very nauseous boat ride...
yep, i got sick.
The big pregnant girl in the back of the boat got sick.
And the crew made jokes...(losers)...
He was so protective over his pukey wife...
it was sweet, in a really gross kinda way.