We met with friends for dinner Friday night.
And although the Mexican food was pretty darn amazing, the conversation is what has been with me since that night.
The topic started about what it is to be fully devoted to Christ.
Kyle and I really need to step it up in the faith department.
God is really pulling on us to be more personally involved with our church family.
My problem (and is what we talked about) is this:
(Here goes my dose of honesty…don’t judge)
• I am extremely insecure. So insecure in fact that when I am surrounded by church going Christian folks…my insecurity radar is off the charts….I don’t speak Christian. Which means I feel like I’m never Christian enough for them… sick I know?
• And getting personally involved with real live people at church means I am accountable to them. And that’s a lot of pressure, but makes no sense.
Ultimately and the most brilliant thing is, it’s not about other people. It’s about God. The words I speak, as long as they are done so in love and in truth…how could I falter?
And being accountable to other people is a hurdle I know I have to overcome, but if I miss a day at church it’s me that is missing out on an opportunity to be a part of something beautiful, something pure.
After some serious words and a few boxes of Girl Scout Cookies later, I was beat.
But in a good way.
I needed to be beat.