Picker

We were painting bird houses and Ayden got caught picking a winner.

He DEFINITELY is a Fisher!

By the way...doesn't he look so relaxed and deep in thought?

Craving

Today I need blueberry pancakes.

They remind me of good things:

• My honeymoon.
• Waking up early as a kid and smelling them in the air as my dad cooked them in the kitchen. (although he would always take creative liberty when making pancakes...they ALWAYS had chocolate chips! I think that is a great rule for life).
• Saturday morning breakfast for my boys. They love pancakes as much as I do!

They remind me of happy times.

Because it's one of those days, where my heart is sad for so many reasons.

A year to reflect

Yesterday was our wedding anniversary.
I am thankful for anniversaries.
They mean love, celebration & commitment.

We went on a date to Ocean Blue.
I ordered a Popcorn Roll...bad mistake as I will find out later.
We talked about business, our new baby, our family.

We also sat in silence...

Forever I thought silence meant something bad.
Maybe we just don't have anything to say to each other?
Am I not interesting?

But now silence to me means peace. And to be able to sit with someone you trust with your life and have peace, is a beautiful thing.

After we took a stroll up market night, enjoyed the company of each other. We walked like those people you see who look really in love.
Holding hands, laughing, & smiling.

It felt good. Until our stomachs did not and we had to rush home to the bathroom.

That is the beauty of marriage I tell ya!

Creepy

On my daily walk, this creepy, nasty, gigantic bug was right by my foot.

Today I don't like nature.

And I especially do not like this bug.

Q-Tips

Last night I dreamt I was shopping for cotton balls and q-tips!
Tell me that is NOT the most interesting dream you've ever heard?
I was a lil' bummed when I woke up that I am even boring in my dreams...

Self Portrait

Me @ 4 months.

The Reason

Why I exist:

Reasons why they made my day:

1) A letter thanking me for taking care of him and loving him.

2) A million small pieces of paper by my bed when I woke up saying "I love mom."

3) Brandon giving me a kiss goodnight after I went to bed early...He thought I was sleeping but I heard him whisper that he loved me so much.

4) Ayden so excited to give me a tracing of his own hand (which looked more like a danish)!

Sometimes my heart could literally explode with all the love I feel for them.

And how lucky I am that they chose me to be their mommy!

Happy Mother's Day!

To all my beautiful friends!

You all inspire me to be a better mother and I love you all.

Look over there >>>>>>

I added a baby ticker...just because it's fun to see a baby float!

ramble

Going into my 14th week I am now beginning to feel so much better...during the day.... but the nights are still hard.
Why is that?

I think my husband wants to disown me...(well not really, but I do feel bad for his lack of a wife these days).

Not eating makes me sick.
Eating then makes me sick.
it's a win win I tell ya!

I was looking a photos of babies "HER" size and my eyes got teary and I realized how truly happy I am to have her/him (gotta be realistic) in our life.

Next step...outfitting the back room into a nursery.
If you've seen my back room...it's going to be a huge undertaking but wish me luck.

Happy Wednesday. I'm off to a doctors appointment.

Free Today

Yesterday the San Bernardino Museum had free admission.

Me, the grandma and the boys decided to take them up on their offer.

I mean what's really free these days?

In the courtyard they had tons of arts & crafts.

And local artists came and gave demos on how they do their art.

I couldn't peel brandon away...

Ayden is a delicate painter, always choosing a small brush and vivid colors.

I do love a good spaceship!



These 2 precious paintings will be displayed in a huge mural at the museum that will become an actual exhibit for life.

It was a beautiful day.

Now I am on a hunt for things that are free & fun...

I'll keep you in the loop.

Let's Kiss

During the courting stage (I like to say I was courted...makes me feel like Jane Austen) between me & the mister, we made a pack that every time we passed Zzyzx Road on the way to Vegas...we'd kiss.

He just sent me this picture and the title said, "Let's Kiss."

He is very sweet and very close to home.

Okay folks - Utah is beyond beautiful!

On the road again...husband's travels...

Creepy cemetery in the middle of No-where, Nebraska...

(if you squint real hard you might be able to see it)

Utah from the side of a Uhaul: